pixie dust

nofluffystop:

Please know that if you date me, I am a very touchy person. I will like to pet your head and hold your hand, rub your shoulders or hug you a lot. Simply put, to physically feel you in some way is very comforting to me and I can’t really apologize for it, it just feels natural to me and makes me happy.


I have always been a feeler.. extreme highs and lows, emotions are never simple in my head. but missing someone like this feels like something is missing and it hurts. like damn. the whole change of routine and company and scenery is very overwhelming right now. i’m just floating, not belonging anywhere,and not knowing what to do with myself. (i wish i could just not feel for a while, but, i did do that when i was on medication, and that was probably worse.) i guess i just have to deal with the pain to be able to have the highs again at some point.